Its moments like this, that makes me want to let go and just let things fall apart. when i'm hanging by a single thread with a slim hope of a bright morning tomorrow. It makes me wonder if i'm where i'm suppose to be or am i lost again in this crazy maze i simply cannot figure out.
I'm scared to death the fact that my heart isn't as numb as it should be. That i'm beginning to feel some warmth. I'm afraid that the time has come for me to walk out of this shelter but somehow i know that the journey will be long and some what hurtful. I'm very afraid that it is time now for me to decide and i just dont want to. i'm not ready of whats ahead of me.... i know that its about time for me to take that chances but the situation is such that i know... either way i go i'm going to hurt again. That either way, the day isnt so bright for me.
All i want is just to know that even if there's a heavy storm tomorrow, that i'll be able to walk through it with a little bit of strengh and sincerity of another heart. I cant afford to walk out the door of my cozy shelter just to go through a heavy storm in doubts and lies.
I guess i will have to leave it to fate and have faith in what god has in store for me... and that god is letting all this happen because its the best for me...
