From my heart to yours~

Dear... a note from my heart to yours...

Cherish the gift of love that you own…

Leave her never,

Love her with all your heart,

Keep her safe & sound,

Sheltered within your warm embrace,

Take good care of her as she does of you,

And her trust you must treasure,

For her love is true,

Just for you & only you…

just another post

Im thankful to the gift i own..

Gift of strength and hope

Gift of great friendship to hold on to

And most of all a gift of unconditional love from my one and only family...

Moments like this...

Its moments like this, that makes me want to let go and just let things fall apart. when i'm hanging by a single thread with a slim hope of a bright morning tomorrow. It makes me wonder if i'm where i'm suppose to be or am i lost again in this crazy maze i simply cannot figure out.

I'm scared to death the fact that my heart isn't as numb as it should be. That i'm beginning to feel some warmth. I'm afraid that the time has come for me to walk out of this shelter but somehow i know that the journey will be long and some what hurtful. I'm very afraid that it is time now for me to decide and i just dont want to. i'm not ready of whats ahead of me.... i know that its about time for me to take that chances but the situation is such that i know... either way i go i'm going to hurt again. That either way, the day isnt so bright for me.

All i want is just to know that even if there's a heavy storm tomorrow, that i'll be able to walk through it with a little bit of strengh and sincerity of another heart. I cant afford to walk out the door of my cozy shelter just to go through a heavy storm in doubts and lies.

I guess i will have to leave it to fate and have faith in what god has in store for me... and that god is letting all this happen because its the best for me...

Safe & whole

I guess there's a reason for each emotion... anger, sad, happy, excitement, disappointment, you name it... i'm sure we've all experienced it. Somehow tears seems to be the most common expression for all these emotion.... (girls that is, boys i'm not sure of) each emotion gives different impacts and each has it own way of marking our lives... well atleast that is how it is in my life.

Tears strikes me today... for two different reasons, sad & disappointment. No doubt life is great and i'm very much happy and thankful for each gift and blessing that god has grant me with, but somehow some thoughts pass by my mind and these emotion were those that came along with it.

God is great ... yes i know. God gives me everything i want & need. God takes away everything if he wants to. God loves me for who i really am because only HE knows everything about me, and hopefully fogives me for sins that i sincerely regret. God is the only one who gives me peace in my mind and heart. goodness me, i know but how come i don't act like i do.

"Others will break your heart,

Leave you strended and break you apart,

God heals your soul,

And keep you safe & whole..."

fugly...

What do i know!!!! I guess u r right hanin!! I dont want that fugly old thing... i've thought about it and i know that it was just a one of those stupid things you do for no reason at all.

What was i thinking... god loves me still and i know that because he has taken away something from me and saved me from getting my self in a messy & fugly situation.. it doesnt hurt all that much but it does sort of buzzed me though. What ever it is... I'm happy i can think straight now...and i know that all this is for the better...

History has Repeated Itself

Truth is... I know its a mistake in the first place, but i thought " what the heck ya!! Whats a lil risk?..." I guess i'm wrong & i know now that of all the voices & sweet spoken words that i've heard from left , right , front & back that little whisper from my heart that i've heard a million times but ignored was the only truth there is...

Nothing else in the world can give u a sincere hope & strength accept that little heart of yours... Because at the end of it all, only your tiny heart knows you better than any other living creature on the entire planet earth...

I guess i had to learn it the hard way. Lies, lies & lies... I cant believe that lies deceived me for the second time..

Well, nobody said that life is fair anyways...

This is the end of chapter 2 of this little tale...

lets all hope there isnt a need for chapter 3 =) i do wish for diffrent story all together tho...in your nearest cinemas soon.. real soon.. ;)

A spark of Light....

Swell.... I'm down with fever & flu..Isn't it just great =) With all the changes i'm going through i guess the fever helps me to slow down a lilttle...Sleep more & think less!! Get rid of those silly thoughts i have.....

Someone seems to be missing in action.. hmm.. i wonder why...

I think maybe its about time for me to just forget about the wish that i have... maybe that spark of light that i thought i saw at the end of this tunnel was just an illusion after all... I do hope i'm wrong though...

Anger strikes me once today with the never ending fuss of little siblings... I sure cant wait for them to grow....Darnn....As angry & frustrated as i am... what is there i can do right... after all, i'm suppose to be the one with more "rational"... Just Great!!

Umm...Is it just me or is it the fever??? Whatever it is.... Tommorrow is another day.... Tata~

Confused

The last time i checked, the earth was still revolving, the sun still rises in the morning & the moon still brightens the night just like it should be. Everything was just right and everything was in its places... but what makes me wonder is the feeling that i'm going through. i dont seem to be able to do things like i use too....

• I hate it that i cant write like i use too.
• I hate it that i have so much to tell yet its all stuck inside me.
• I hate this feeling of agony as if i'm waiting for something to go wrong but i dont know what.
• And i hate the fact that i cant talk about it simply because i wouldnt know what to talk about.
• I hate the feeling as if i had made a mistake & i'm just too late to make things right.
• I hate the feeling of guilt when i havent actually done anything wrong
  

So much of a vacation... i thought that everything was going well infact better than i expect but i seem to be clouded with so much thoughts that i shouldnt even be thinking about in the first place!!

I miss a friend that seem to be out of touch... which i hope will turn up soon. i want to do so much but i cant cz i'm afraid that i'll be a distraction in a negative way...

i was sure about something...now i'm not...

I thought i made a decision on something but it turns out maybe my decision is no longer needed. i thought i was in the right positon but circumstances has made things look like i was wrong...

i've got great frens & lots of good things around me but i just dont understand why i'm confused..

I'm confused...lost..it seems.

Janji & Kata-kata

Bukan paras rupa jadi ukuran,
Bukan juga kehebatan diri,
Hanya kejujuran untuk sebuah harapan,
Dan keikhlasan dari hati.

Hanya ingin diyakin kan,
Bukan dengan kata-kata sahaja,
Tapi penuhi setiap janji dengan perbuatan,
Jadi kan setiap kata-kata mu nyata.

Hari berganti hari,
Janji dan kata-kata semakin hilang dan jauh,
Mungkin silap ku kerana hanya berdiam diri,
Tapi mungkin juga ianya suatu bukti.

Jika diri ini yang bersalah,
Ku susunkan sepuluh jari,
Andinya aku telah melukai hati atau perasaan mu,
Dan akan ku doakan bahagiaan mu di setiap hari-hariku..

Dengan doa dan usaha,
Aku serahkan selebihnya pada takdir,
Aku nanti kan sebuah cerita bahagia,
Aku nanti kan diri mu hadir...

What a girl wants

What a girl wants is just a place to belong,
A person to hold on to,
Not a nice & sweet written song,
Just two warm arms to fall back to.